Full send.
I always knew that there was more to life. I knew that there was more to God than what I had experienced so far. I desired to know more about Him, to find out what I had been missing out on. I desired to hear His voice over the loud noise of this world, to experience His miracles and to feel His love. I knew that all of these amazing things that God had for me were right there but I didn’t know how to grasp them. It was like sitting on a roller coaster not knowing how to start it.
Going to YWAM Maui I had no idea what to expect but I had a feeling that it was going to be intense and challenging. Oh and how that feeling turned out to be true later on. I was about to launch that scary, crazy, thrilling roller coaster ride…
After every week of lecture, I could see more and more how much I had grown in my walk with Jesus and the way my relationship to Him got steadier. Finally, I started to find what I had been looking for, for such a long time. I learned to hear and experience the Lord through scripture, through nature when surfing or hiking, through the gentle and loving words and deeds of other students and staff, even through dreams and visions. Not that it was all sunshine and roses. There was a good amount of challenging and painful days and I think I felt pretty much any emotion possible. I mean have you ever cried and laughed at the same time? Not the one where one happens right after the other. I’m talking about literally crying and laughing at. the. same. time! Me neither, until the Holy Spirit… Aaaanyway, the rough days were, no doubt, the ones that I grew and healed on the most.
Looking back I can see how during all this time, Jesus had been sitting right next to me on this roller coaster not letting go off of my hand a single time while steering! the whole thing. And you know what? That roller coaster ride never ended. Even after I had graduated from my DTS it kept going and we are still on it. That scary, crazy, thrilling roller coaster ride steered by Jesus who Himself is the way and the truth and the life (John 14:6).
By Jane Scho